I don't know why i'm doing this but for some reason i decided to have a little look back at my blog and i feel bad for neglecting the poor thing, so, here i am. In the time i've been gone a lot has gone on in my life, i passed my driving test second time round and am now, some how, driving a BMW, i've completed my A-Levels, not necessarily successfully, and i have decided to move to cambridge to live with my boyfriend. I now work full time at a cafe i first started out at as a weekend worker when i was sixteen and now, at the ripe old age of 18, i am a full time, 5-day week worker and i am just struggling through each day having to remind myself that i need this money. i need it to escape from the monotony of life here but am i ever going to excape this monotonous way of life? From now on all i plan to do is work, have a career some day but i fear, if i am getting tired of it already, what does that say for my future? Maybe i just need to find a job that i love, but i don't know how to work out what i'd love to do for a living in all honesty. I wonder and wonder if i should have made more of an effort towards going to uni, but i fucking hate studying and i never have liked it so the fact that i got myself into a position where uni wasn't really an option,has probably stopped me from making what could have been a massive mistake for me...i can safely say that for the time being, i am so enjoying a life without deadlines, without exams and without fucking teachers breathing down my neck. For now, i'll take the simplicity of my life for granted cos i know, it ain't gonna last for long :)
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